I am abusing my rabbits

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i have 2 male rabbits and i love them like anything. but i have this strange habit of hitting them, hard on their face and everywhere when they bite me...if i am really angry, i throw them up to the ceiling and they land on my bed...i do this to scare them...hoping that the land on bed is bouncy so wont hurt but just scares them....the reason i hit them is when they bite or scratch me(i pick them only to pet them and they do it nd i hate it), or when they try to run away from me(i also hate to see they run away from theit owner). sometimes,when i cut their nails or comb their fur, i want them liy on their back and they dont. after throwing them up, when i put them on their back, they dont even try to get up but just obeys. so i took that scaring them to obey me is a good thing.
recently my habbit gone worse. the rabbits got mature and i saw the brown male mounting on the white male...i didnt mind at first, but then realised that it is only the  brown doing that and always he chases and scares white and wont even let him have his meal peacefully...he always want to mount him....then i gone mad...i dont mind if the white does the same to brown..but seeing that white gets abused always, everytime brown tries anything, i hit him like hell and hold his tail so that he cant do anything....i also beat his leg with a wooden piece by holding him on ears and last week the leg was bleeding...i feel very very bad after hitting but i cant stop. i think both rabbit has got the same rights and i hate seeing brown trying to be dominant..i went to vet to neuteur them but vet said  to wait until they are 5  months old. now, i only have to shout at brown to warn him when he attempts something and he backs off...i dont hit white one at all. in the meantime, i asked many people to help me to stop this, some said to tie the brown up so that he wont run after the white and thats what im doing nw. he usually chews everything in my house and broke a cinema system cost 1500usd...still dont beat them...but i cant stand brown dominating the white...i tried one more thing, tied brown up and put white on top so he gets a chance to mount aswell...and it worked...but still he runs away from the brown so i always have to tie brown up and i am not liking it.
the most strange thing is, brown licks me more than ever, after i bully him like hell! why is that?..even when i hold him tight to hurt him, if he can reach my hand, or he tries his best to reach, and licks me! is he really scared? does he hate me? if so why is he licking me? one day i scared him bad enough that he peed, then still he licked me. also i seriously need help to stop hitting him..ast 2 days, i promised myself not to hit him and i kept my promise..the problem is, me, my father, my grandfather and my sister have the same habbit...hurting inorder to make obey...my dad used to hurt me beyond belief to make me obey and my granddad used to hit our cow soo badly that one day the neighbors had to get involved to stop him beating her as she couldnt walk nearly for 2 days.i realised later me and my sister have the same habbit and is really not helping to make a poor helplesss rabbit suffer...I WANT TO Stop...i thought about giving the brown to someone but i cannot because i love him like my own baby. my big question is, does he present with the same habbit after neutering? thanks a lot

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Dear Keisha,

I cannot tell you how disturbing your letter is.  You are ABUSING HELPLESS ANIMALS and could end up killing them.  IT IS NOT OKAY TO HIT THEM ****EVER******!!!!!!

STOP this horrible behavior immediately.  If you cannot control yourself, then give these helpless animals to someone who will care for them and not abuse them.

They are not toys or property of yours.  They are living, breathing, feeling animals.  You must NOT stop or control their natural behavior by torturing them.  If I knew where you lived, I would report you to the local society to prevent cruelty to animals.

But lacking this information, I can only hope that you will see the light and give these helpless creatures away to someone who will care for them, and then seek psychological counseling for yourself to get to the source of your hostility and have it treated.

I wish you luck, but I TRULY HOPE YOU WILL GIVE THESE RABBITS TO YOUR LOCAL RABBIT RESCUE before something unthinkable happens.

Dana