I mistreated my cat, and now I want her tame again.

Question
I have a Persian cat which is about 2 years old now, when she was 1 and a half she came back from the vet, I carried her out of her cage and suddenly she flipped out and started scratching my hands and bit me hard. So without having control of what I did, I beat her. ever since that day she has not come close to me and every time i come close to her she hisses and like makes a weird sound like get away from me. Is there anything I can do to make her trust me and play with me again?

I have 2 other cats one is 8months and another 1 and a half year. the 8months i got him since he 1month and the other about the same age. they are affectionate and playful and both of them adore me.
I love my Persian she is really beautiful white with blue eyes, and i had her since she was 2months she was a very playful kitten and loved people I just wish she would go back to her normal self its been 8 months that shes been aggressive.

Please help!

Answer
Hello Abdul,

This is a difficult situation and i am going to be honest with you. So you have to be a man and face up to your actions and i will tell you what i see knowing both cat behavior and completed graduate studies in human psychology.
Thank you for writing and trying to change, I will hopefully give you some insight here, this is more about you, than your cat. It is obvious you do not feel good about this.
If you are  a man of a slight build say 150lbs then you beat a delicate sentient being that is most likely (if your cat is 7-8 lbs) TWENTY times smaller than you.  Regardless, if she bit you this is NOT excusable behavior.
This tells me something -
1), you probably experienced this yourself - being beaten and learned this behavior in your life somewhere from childhood or your past and there is a lot of rage in you.
In order to stop the cycle of abuse, we need to take responsibility, a man beating a cat is really quite inexcusable and very very indicative of impulse control problems.
In human behavior -history repeats itself so your kitty not feeling safe with you is completely what one would expect. You can not cross the lines of trust to win them back at your desire. I would be very afraid this could happen again.
I am not sure your access to IMPULSE CONTROL WORKSHOPS OR THERAPY but if not offered in your country please check your resources online. For yourself, your loved ones and your poor cat I would commit to this and resolve your deep seated anger and frustration. It is not something to be ashamed of as we all have our issues we were given to work on in this life.

I think many vet offices are not pleasant for animals, there are dogs barking, there is the smell of panic very strong in the atmosphere, they are not handled very nicely, restrained, poked and violated. As a man, experiencing any of this against your will, you would also be in shock as your cat was when she arrived home. Learn to understand her behavior and to empathize, develop a softer side that has more empathy and compassion and is tender and loving. I do not know what happened to your cat at the vet, but I can tell you the treatment room is not a good experience for animals, they are beyond terrified. Have you ever seen a man or woman after being held against their will by foreign people and also violated? This is quite comparable to vet's office and animals experience at times. (foreign unknown people holding her down against her will and doing painful things)
For you, to beat an animal when she is in a state of probable post traumatic stress is really something you need to think hard about. This is really damaging.
she does not feel safe with you at all and this is why she hisses, you have caused her bodily amd psychological harm when she was in a most vulnerable state, how and why could she or should she feel safe?

Also, you are probably not so versed in feline body language because your cat would of given ample warning if she was terrified or scared if you FORCED her out of the kennel than this is not her fault for biting and attacking you. They are not dolls, they have their own complex make-ups and we need to respect that. Learn the subtleties of feline body language.
You have to think about how you force your will on her, and how you are unable to control your impulses. No child, human, or animal would ever feel safe in an environment where someone has a shaky, volatile core and this is what you have proven to have. Maybe not always, but if you are pushed enough then you exhibit violence. It is very telling that a small defenseless creature has pushed a grown man to the point of violence so your issues are very exposed.
You cannot tell me or have any psychologist believe that you are not of volatile nature of that when pushed you wont snap again.
I dont know your religious beliefs, but I would deepen my faith in the purity of Allah if you are of Muslim faith, or whomever you prayer to for peace in your innermost self, and seek counsel for your wounded past. This is the first thing you can do. I would make an effort to know myself inside and out and my foibles and be honest with myself about it. I would also take some lessons in psychology and learn and read up on post traumatic stress. I would read up on the effects of abuse and learn how to stop the cycle of violence. I would use this as an invitation to heal yourself and through this perhaps you can become a healer yourself.
The first step to change is to acknowledge and admit and feel and know deep in your heart, then take the necessary measures to change and be strong in your convictions. Become so tuned in to yourself and your body and Know your body language that will start to tell you immediately that you will be losing control such as heart racing, chest flush, shortened breath etc. Then when you feel this, make a concerted effort to remove yourself from your mindset and breath and relax and pray.
Your male cats aren't even old enough or at the age where you beat your female, so i do not trust you  wont do this in the future, why should the cat you mistreated feel safe?
What have you done to change your impulses? If nothing, then I can not ever tell you she will trust you.
I know life is very difficult but I believe our pasts shape us to be better people if we are brave enough to claim, admit, and own up to our downfalls, and our gifts. These wounded places in us have the potential to be buried treasures so please for the sake of your life, your family, your cats and as an example to those around you be a better person!
If you are unable to commit to changing  I believe it best to find the most loving home for all of the cats to a gentle soul that knows cat behavior and will work gingerly with a cat that has been abused and commit to loving and caring for them for their lifetimes.
I have Buddhist beliefs and believe... And so, with a boundless heart should one cherish all living things... This means you, the people that hurt you, your cat and all animals.
I would meditate or pray daily and connect to something often throughout the day that makes your heart peaceful. Animals are very sensitive to our innermost selves.

To cherish an animal with reverence and respect, with love and awe will create safety.
Please feel free to write again and tell me your discoveries or the changes you are contemplating.

I send you gentleness and the softness of a kind loving peaceful heart,
Shanti